It’s time to get deep my lovelies…
I’m going back to work in t-minus 4 weeks. I’m shitting bricks, I’m not going to lie.
I’m nervous about being a mum returning to work (for the second time) and I am not looking forward to adding commuting, full time work hours and the extra commitment to my already non-sleeping life 😐
Not that I’ve been living a life of leisure at home with a newborn and a crazy toddler, but you do tend to have time on your hands as a SAHM, and not to mention the dress code is pretty chill (I’m talking pyjamas, no makeup and mum bun ALL DAY 😛 )
But overall my feelings towards going back to work are excitement!
I am so excited to have something that is mine again, to be in control of my career again and mostly just to be doing something I know I am good at.
I do love my job, I think I’m pretty good at it, and unlike motherhood, I can stay in control pretty much 90% of the time. Being a good mum is hard to ‘measure’ as your only judge of ability is typically unable to express their approval other than crying or screaming.
So having my ability & expertise clearly measured and articulated will be a huge motivation for me 🙂
I’m keen to be back running my brain each day and challenging myself. Not that being a mum isn’t challenging, it is the hardest job of all. But its not necessarily brain stimulating, with the nursery rhymes, baby talk and so much Paw Patrol 😛
Now don’t get me wrong, I LOVE my boys, and I LOVE being a mum. But for me to be the best mum to my boys, I have to work. It’s just as simple as that.
No matter how exhausted or sleep deprived I will be, I am a better version of myself when I have my own ‘thing’ to pour my passion and focus into, and to give me a chance to miss them, I think it’s so important to miss them… So when I come home, all I want to do is love and kiss on my boys.
I know that not every mum feels the way I do, and a lot of people will judge & criticise me for saying that I ‘want to be away from my kids’ – But let’s get real, other than me wanting to work, life is fucking expensive, and I want to provide the most amazing and exciting lives for no only myself, but for my boys too. And we simply cannot do that without 2 working parents.
I’m super lucky to have a great company that I work for, that has flexible hours and working options not only for mothers but just in general for it’s employees. So I can adjust and adapt my hours to suit my mum-life and to make it work with our family and daycare schedules.
Again, I know not everyone has this flexibility and working sometimes just isn’t the best choice for some families.
I know I am not alone in the working mums category, so I wanna hear from you guys..
Are you stay at home mums? Working mums? A bit of both?
Do you do it by choice? Or is it just life?
Let me know in the comments below or on my socials 😀